The last time I posted I showed you that I was doing some experimenting with acrylic paints, well part of me wishes I had never started. Don't get me wrong I was quite enjoying the painting and I even listed a couple of them in my shop but it's led to a dilemma in my head - you see I realise when I paint lighter, cuter work more people 'like' it- more views etc and my head says to me if you created more upbeat whimsical paintings you could maybe sell more.
But my heart says no. What I really want to do is draw girls with sad eyes and smiles at the edges of their mouths, little bursts of emotion that come right from inside me - like the moments when you've been sobbing and someone makes you laugh through your tears.
I've been down this road many times, the road that says do what you love, even if only a tiny amount of people love it too. But the lane off this road that I wander down through my head says create to sell. So what am I - an artist that creates from my heart or someone who wants to one day create a business using my head. I wish I could make up my mind, or my heart.